Bhanus' Chemistry

I guess everyone has some incidents in life... which, when they occur, make us feel cheated, fooled and our reactions to those incidents are rage and anger. And if we can, would want to bring hell on those circumstances or people who landed us there. But as time passes by... when one looks back... those things can be incredibly funny... Such a funny incident flashed my mind as i was passing through this Royal Junior College at S.R.Nagar today, this place reminds me of my Intermediate final exams and a funny story too...

I was never a champion at studies during my school days... but I wasn't a dud either... I was among those who were under distinction and rank above second class. In Intermediate I did make a rapid progress... i.e if you are guaging with right scales..:))) By the end of Ist year I was so happy that I managed to clear it... I guess my stars must have been in right place then. During the second year I discovered that College Life offers many more exciting things other than MATHS, PHYSICS & CHEMISTRY and they were real fun to me. So by the end of the year, I did add a few notches to my knowledge quotient but none of them were in MATHS, PHYSICS or CHEMISTRY. I didn't have a clue of anything in any subject what so ever, infact during my final week before exams... I was wondering if I was reading the right books... As I couldn't make an ounce of meaning from the text in front of me. So all done... finally the exams arrived... First few exams were done... and yours truely lived up to your expectations... forget about additional sheets, i never went passed the first page in the answer booklet.

Now comes the exciting CHEMISTRY exam... As usual practice I went through pages from dusk to dawn all night, though I never could make any sense of what I was reading... I tried... Honestly, Infact somewhere deep down I had the confidence that I will be able to clear this one... maybe one of those instinct things... I got a feeling that the clogs were in right place. There I was in the exam hall... ROYAL JUNIOR COLLEGE, S.R.Nagar... eagerly waiting for question paper, hoping to find the few questions whose solutions I was able to by-heart and rattafy, and there it was...
Brilliant!!!!!
Awesome...
Paper was like...
like it was being made by someone who is actually aware of questions I mucked up... I couldn't even find one question that i knew even by coincidence!!!:)))
Now what...????
What...???
Naaa... I guess This shouldn't be tricky enough situation for me!!!! I am used to this stuff!!!!! I Have done it with English and even Sanskrit... :):):)
"Sitting Idle and giving blank stares in exam hall", and this time even the invigilator was not spared of my stares, guy did gave me back the same blank stare... we exchanged looks for about 60 minutes... then the guy gave up, came to me and asked what's bothering me and why am I not writing...???
I gave him a honest reply... I strongly wish to write...but... unfortunately... there is nothing I could answer.

He seemed to be a very kindhearted man... he offered me to help and said he can provide answers of all(18) 1 mark questions which are usually one word or either true or false. and asked me to write something for another 6 marks as 24 was the pass mark. He even told me that he was a Chemistry lecturer at that college. Now he looked like my only beacon of light, as i was smiling my way to sky. Couldn't believe my luck, my heart was filled with joy as he was whispering those answers... we wrapped up 18 questions in about 15 minutes as they didn't require much writing. Then I guess he expected me to handover the answer booklet after a while and leave, which I din't do... so he came back to me again and asked what's the problem now...???
I gave him another honest reply..."Sir I don't know anything in this paper which can fetch me those 6 marks"...he then did give me this "You are Unbelievable" look and said "I'll see what I can do". After Half an hour or so, he came to me and gave an additional answer sheet, I promptly took it... but i had a question WHY??? additional now???, surprisingly it had a chit in the middle of it which had 4 answers for threemark questions... so that makes solutions for 12 marks, so now I have attempted total of 30 marks(18+12). Thougt i had cleared my Chemistry paper. I was boasting about my adventure with my friends during the whole term break.

Finally the D'day had arrived, The day when results came on paper, i was sure my number wouldn't be there in it. but my mom was too excited and started searching right from 3rd class to 1st class, much to my surprise she even looked for my number in the malpractice section. but thank god it wasn't there... heyyy i finally failed my intermediate, i jumped and screamed as i was already sure of the results. even my best buddies couldn't make it... all of us failed...:):):) and we all sang "Undigaa September March Paina"...

Later Me and my friends went to college to collect our marksheets so that we can apply for subjects again, but all the while I was confident that I would score 1 better than my friends as I will clear Chemistry and they would fail at that as well. so here were the marks...sheets...wow!!!!! ohhooooooo.....every thing was like expected, most of the subjects showed marks in single digits.....
Maths - 0
Physics - 1
English - 42
Sanskrit - 54 and
to my astonishment... i could only score 6 marks in Chemistry... The whole marks coloumn seemed like a telephone number...and I felt chemistry co-operated with other subjects just to keep the sequence.

My friends were making fun of me...I couldnt talk for a while... it felt like a bitter capsule had bursted in my heart, and diffusing its flavour all around it. I was in rage....I was angry... I wanted to trace that Invigilator...see to it that he gets killed, but they were all just thoughts....

Looking back at that experience, me and my friends still have a hearty laugh... It is one of those incredible comic experiences of my life... and we all still wonder if he really was a chemistry lecturer at royal college...

hey.. wait... me and my friends cleared all the subjects in september though... :)))))

People who like Me...

Someone said "Bhanu you have so many people who like you" and they said it right!!!

Now when i look back, i only see my friends who have been through all my good and bad times. i felt like thanking them for being what they were and what they are. My friends are like diamonds... precious, rare and forever. Everyone listens' to what i say but my friends listen to what i don't even say. I can trust my friends. These people force me to examine and encourage me to grow in life. They are in my every step towards success.

Anil - You mean a lot to me buddy. You actually mean a life to me. Without you i would have been collapsed a decade ago. Thanks for being a wonderful friend and the best business partner.

"Don't walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don't walk behind me, I may not lead.
Walk beside me and be my Friend"

Anand - You are the best one dear. I love you a lot. You were always there to guide me and to show me the way when i was lost. You are like my elder brother, like a guide, like a master. Thanx dear.

"A friend is one who believes in you when you have ceased to believe in yourself."

Chaitu - To me you are an overpowering surprise. I get amazed by your intellect and confidence. You are my rebel star Che. Love u man. but you are less into talking and more into smoking, but that's your style. I love you dude. Thanx for being a part of me.

"Every person is a new door to a different world."

Srisailam - Though you are irritating and annoying all the time, I feel the most for you ra mass fellow. You always took my side in every fight of life. Thanx for everything... Those guys would have killed me at school if you weren't there. You were my Macho, my Hero at school... and you still remain to be. Thanx ra ne ayya.

"A friend is one who walks in when the rest of the world walks out."

Santu - Other than your boring lectures, everything thrills me. You are the one who knows me from top to toe, and you still love me. Thanks for being with me. I Will need you as much as always.

"A friend is the one who knows all about you, and still likes you."

Kamal - You are such a multi-talented Idiot. You are the one whom i cannot compete. I Feel relaxed and releaved listening to you. Also remember that i took smoking seriously only because you told me...i look superb when i hold a cigarette.
We share the most common feelings. Thanx for being my Entertainer.

"Friends have all things in common."

Santosh.G - In 18 years of our friendship, You never had a single complaint except for my smoking habit. You are a silent killer. I Love you ra. You remain my good old dude. You are the only buddha in my list. Don't smoke, Don't Booz, Don't flirt... inka endukura neeku ee manishi bratuku???

"The best mirror is an old friend."

Prabhakar - You were a friend by chance, not by choice. You and I must thank srisailam for bringing us together. You were always the good nice guy. Preaching me all the time. Your confidence kills me. Thanx dear.

"Life is partly what we make it, and partly what is made by the friends whom we choose."

Lingam - School mates are never to be forgotten. You care for me today even if i don't talk to you for years. I love you for your truthfulness and care towards friends. Thanx ra.

"Friends are the most important ingredient in this recipe of life."

There are many other friends whom i like and who like me too...
Krishnudu, Deepak, Vicky, Sudheer, Venu Sriram, Pravin Sri, Rohan, Srikanth, U.Vijay, Bhaskar, Kaladhar, Javeed, Vasu, Bose, Adesh, Pramod, Suresh Geervani, Anand Ravi, Sai Kiran, Mahi, Kalyan, Brahmesh, Prandeep, Dolly, Chaitanya, Chandoo, Rajasimha, Arun, Vijay Chakravarthi, Anil Bandari, Rannu, Sondu, Cyril, Moen, Daya, Rajendra, Hari Goud, Muppirala, Naveen, Bujji, Samar, Saradhi, Phani, Srinu, Govardhan, Hemanth, Sumesh
and the list goes on...

"My friends are my estate."

without my friends... i would be a failure... Thanks all for promoting me to higher standards, for setting my goals, for listening to me, for crying with me, for wiping my tears... for all those moments that i can cherish as long as i live.

My love for you will never die...
you are my day, you are my night
you are my reality, you are my dream
you are my desire, you are my aversion
you are my question, you are my answer
you are my pleasure, you are my treasure
you give me peace, you are my everyday war
you are my performance booster
you are the perfect balancer
without you am not complete
i hold you when am happy, i hold you when am sad
i know you will kill me someday... but...
My love for you will never die
my love "GOLD FLAKE" i love you

LIVE LIFE KING SIZE

YESTERDAY
As a smoker, I have spent years dreaming of the day I'll finally be able to stub out that last cigarette and start living a life free of nicotine addiction. At the same time, I was so afraid to quit... to actually take that step that means I am done with smoking. Life without my cigarettes was scary to contemplate. Every time I light a cigarette, I said to myself "I'm about to quit smoking. I have one last cigarette left, and after I smoke this last one, that's it." Even though I was looking forward to quitting, the most prevalent emotion I felt was fear. And as i try to put my fear into words, the thoughts that come to mind are:
What am I going to do without my cigarettes?
What am I going to do if I can't/don't smoke?

Many times I have made a serious commitment to quit smoking, more than likely, the count was in multiples of tens! But I have been puffing non-stop, day in and day out. As I try to analyze the fact that beholds me from quitting... the answer lies in the insidious nature of nicotine addiction. Over time, since I developed this habit of smoking, it weaved it's way through all the activities in my life, I even think I can't be happy and productive without a cigarette. I always tell myself that I'll quit next week, next month, by the end of the year....and so on.... All the while, time marches on and I am no where closer to quitting!

Every Saturday before going home, I light up a cigarette and say this is my last one, and will quit by Monday as I'll be inaccessible to cigarettes at home... But when I return to work on Monday, I light it up again and think of quitting by next monday. I have been building 52 opportunities a year to quit and start smoking. Everyone including my friends, family and my doctor and even the picture on the pack tell me why i shouldn't smoke, and how bad it is for my health. I even googled for some quit smoking tips and tried to follow... but it's a tough path to follow. I guess the newton's theory worked, every action of mine to quit smoking bounced back equally making our bond more stronger.

TODAY
Finally after so many fruitless, sorry sorry smokeless efforts, i have put an end to everything and decided not to quit smoking. Everybody knows the adverse effects of smoking, but there are still millions of smokers around the globe. Every smoker comes up with thousands of reasons not to quit. mine is just simple, i don't quit... sorry sorry i can't quit, wouldn't it be more appropriate? Now is it only the nicotine addiction that's holding me from quitting, if not... there should be something more than just the addiction, thinking all this, i have googled for the benefits of smoking... very very funny idea though!

"Here are My Top 10 reasons for smoking"

1) Smoking Relieves Stress
This is one common thing, most smokers say

2) Smoking Relaxes Your Breathing
The way you breathe when you smoke helps your body relax and calm down. Relaxation breathing involves taking a deep breath into the lungs and holding it in for a second or two before exhaling. This is exactly like the act of smoking.

3) Smoke Breaks - Calm You Down
If you go outside for smoke breaks, this simple act can really help you with your stress. Say if you’re in a fight or close to the deadline on major project.

4) You get a break from your stressor

5) You get into the open, every 30 mins.
Good for me and my back as i work on a computer all day

6) You leave the stressful environment

7) You have time to think about your problems from an objective point of view

8) Nicotine is an Anxiety and Depression Medication
The nicotine in cigarettes is also a major factor of stress relief. Nicotine is a chemical which mildly and temporarily stops the feelings of anxiety and depression.

9) Cigarettes are a great form of self medication.

10) Cigarettes are a great source of pleasure.

TOMORROW
Many say Smoking kills, its even written on the pack...
But I think SMOKING THRILLS... SO HAPPY SMOKING :-)
Now is the time to confess to my dearest parents, family and friends who strongly want me to quit smoking... I am sorry to say, but i cannot quit, and i will never promise you that I will do so, as i have realized the fact that I can't stop myself for falling prey for it... rather I don't want to... Please forgive me for atleast the coming 52 Mondays... let's see if I can do it on the 53rd.

Suggestions:
Lucky Non-Smokers, please stay away even from trying it.
Smokers who wish to quit, continue the never ending effort, even if unsuccessful for a million times... here is a link which can help you or even confuse you... http://www.quitsmoking.com/info/articles/20tips

SMOKING IS SEVERELY INJURIOUS TO YOU AND PEOPLE AROUND YOU.