Bhanu gaadi sodhi kaburlu...

My love for you will never die...
you are my day, you are my night
you are my reality, you are my dream
you are my desire, you are my aversion
you are my question, you are my answer
you are my pleasure, you are my treasure
you give me peace, you are my everyday war
you are my performance booster
you are the perfect balancer
without you am not complete
i hold you when am happy, i hold you when am sad
i know you will kill me someday... but...
My love for you will never die
my love "GOLD FLAKE" i love you

LIVE LIFE KING SIZE

YESTERDAY
As a smoker, I have spent years dreaming of the day I'll finally be able to stub out that last cigarette and start living a life free of nicotine addiction. At the same time, I was so afraid to quit... to actually take that step that means I am done with smoking. Life without my cigarettes was scary to contemplate. Every time I light a cigarette, I said to myself "I'm about to quit smoking. I have one last cigarette left, and after I smoke this last one, that's it." Even though I was looking forward to quitting, the most prevalent emotion I felt was fear. And as i try to put my fear into words, the thoughts that come to mind are:
What am I going to do without my cigarettes?
What am I going to do if I can't/don't smoke?

Many times I have made a serious commitment to quit smoking, more than likely, the count was in multiples of tens! But I have been puffing non-stop, day in and day out. As I try to analyze the fact that beholds me from quitting... the answer lies in the insidious nature of nicotine addiction. Over time, since I developed this habit of smoking, it weaved it's way through all the activities in my life, I even think I can't be happy and productive without a cigarette. I always tell myself that I'll quit next week, next month, by the end of the year....and so on.... All the while, time marches on and I am no where closer to quitting!

Every Saturday before going home, I light up a cigarette and say this is my last one, and will quit by Monday as I'll be inaccessible to cigarettes at home... But when I return to work on Monday, I light it up again and think of quitting by next monday. I have been building 52 opportunities a year to quit and start smoking. Everyone including my friends, family and my doctor and even the picture on the pack tell me why i shouldn't smoke, and how bad it is for my health. I even googled for some quit smoking tips and tried to follow... but it's a tough path to follow. I guess the newton's theory worked, every action of mine to quit smoking bounced back equally making our bond more stronger.

TODAY
Finally after so many fruitless, sorry sorry smokeless efforts, i have put an end to everything and decided not to quit smoking. Everybody knows the adverse effects of smoking, but there are still millions of smokers around the globe. Every smoker comes up with thousands of reasons not to quit. mine is just simple, i don't quit... sorry sorry i can't quit, wouldn't it be more appropriate? Now is it only the nicotine addiction that's holding me from quitting, if not... there should be something more than just the addiction, thinking all this, i have googled for the benefits of smoking... very very funny idea though!

"Here are My Top 10 reasons for smoking"

1) Smoking Relieves Stress
This is one common thing, most smokers say

2) Smoking Relaxes Your Breathing
The way you breathe when you smoke helps your body relax and calm down. Relaxation breathing involves taking a deep breath into the lungs and holding it in for a second or two before exhaling. This is exactly like the act of smoking.

3) Smoke Breaks - Calm You Down
If you go outside for smoke breaks, this simple act can really help you with your stress. Say if you’re in a fight or close to the deadline on major project.

4) You get a break from your stressor

5) You get into the open, every 30 mins.
Good for me and my back as i work on a computer all day

6) You leave the stressful environment

7) You have time to think about your problems from an objective point of view

8) Nicotine is an Anxiety and Depression Medication
The nicotine in cigarettes is also a major factor of stress relief. Nicotine is a chemical which mildly and temporarily stops the feelings of anxiety and depression.

9) Cigarettes are a great form of self medication.

10) Cigarettes are a great source of pleasure.

TOMORROW
Many say Smoking kills, its even written on the pack...
But I think SMOKING THRILLS... SO HAPPY SMOKING :-)
Now is the time to confess to my dearest parents, family and friends who strongly want me to quit smoking... I am sorry to say, but i cannot quit, and i will never promise you that I will do so, as i have realized the fact that I can't stop myself for falling prey for it... rather I don't want to... Please forgive me for atleast the coming 52 Mondays... let's see if I can do it on the 53rd.

Suggestions:
Lucky Non-Smokers, please stay away even from trying it.
Smokers who wish to quit, continue the never ending effort, even if unsuccessful for a million times... here is a link which can help you or even confuse you... http://www.quitsmoking.com/info/articles/20tips

SMOKING IS SEVERELY INJURIOUS TO YOU AND PEOPLE AROUND YOU.